Thats the only thing on my mind lately :)
Today we start with this skiing holiday week, what means our youth center is open every day for kids and youngsters to enjoy their holidays doing different activities. Siting in the office looking directly into hall where two girls are running around and playing made me think about my childhood about the how we were spending holidays and bringing back memories about all this people we were going together trough that times...where they are? which road did they take? Remembering all our little moments when we disscuss about future, our wishes. Road of life normally takes us to the different places, to take different lesson... i was just wondering if there is a chance to meet all this people again, to make some event like childhood memories night, where we all would meet and remember our moments when we were just kids running and playing around...myb just a wish or realistic idea? I dont know, but i can try :)
This going back over and over again is starting to annoy me a bit. I know im always doing that in particular time, when i should be looking just forward. But is kinda my little escape like avoiding decisions i need to make. Yes, quilty as charged. But somehow this going back, pretending to be child again makes life easier at some point. Im always saying that little escapes are good. But when everything comes to a point when present becomes past is not good anymore. And i now is time to focus on present, building the future.
Tell me something new :D "Sometimes you find yourself in the middle of the nowhere, but sometimes in the middle of the nowhere you find yourself" story of my life i could say. My mother was always saying dont say things out to loud at the end you always do whatever you said u would never do :) soo back in 2013 i was travelling to Finland, just for a week to do European youth capital project in Helsinki. Short trip was nice, but really nothing special, my comment to was...whatever i think i will never go to Finland again. Not thinking too much about this country after i was doing my regular things back home, studies, work and travelling.
At some point i decided i wanna do this one year voluntary project somewhere in Europe. I was thinking about Austria or Germany, like still close to home so i can visit every month and i can learn german, one thing to do on my bucket list. Then i went to Japan, discovered totally new culture, that made me feel different and happy. Back to Slovenia some interesting project in Finland pop out. Hmm first thought was like no way, even though the project sound really good i wasnt really sure, and Finland is soo far away and there is no sun etc.. at the end im here. Living my dreams. I learned is not about the weather, is the thing i cant change. Is about me, my views and attitude towards life. I found sun inside of me, inside every smile i get from the kids and youngsters im working with. Even i found sun in dark places. In finnish nature, sometimes even in finnish food :) travelling and moving to other country has nothing in common. Now i can say. I kinda judge country based on one week experience, but i gave it second chance...and from now on yes everything and everybody deserve second chance...(ok not in every single case)...and i need to say second chance was f* worth. I have learned a lot, (not the language yet!), but i will, cause i want to. And i want to look forward with occasionally moments looking back, being happy to follow my dreams, and build my life, on different roads, that leads to different places and people :)
but the one thing i always will, i promise to myself! i will always carry one thing with me : SMILE :)
And yes dear readers from all over the world, i will make this event called "childhood memories night" and im sure it will turn into endless night :)
love, muri
Today we start with this skiing holiday week, what means our youth center is open every day for kids and youngsters to enjoy their holidays doing different activities. Siting in the office looking directly into hall where two girls are running around and playing made me think about my childhood about the how we were spending holidays and bringing back memories about all this people we were going together trough that times...where they are? which road did they take? Remembering all our little moments when we disscuss about future, our wishes. Road of life normally takes us to the different places, to take different lesson... i was just wondering if there is a chance to meet all this people again, to make some event like childhood memories night, where we all would meet and remember our moments when we were just kids running and playing around...myb just a wish or realistic idea? I dont know, but i can try :)
This going back over and over again is starting to annoy me a bit. I know im always doing that in particular time, when i should be looking just forward. But is kinda my little escape like avoiding decisions i need to make. Yes, quilty as charged. But somehow this going back, pretending to be child again makes life easier at some point. Im always saying that little escapes are good. But when everything comes to a point when present becomes past is not good anymore. And i now is time to focus on present, building the future.
Tell me something new :D "Sometimes you find yourself in the middle of the nowhere, but sometimes in the middle of the nowhere you find yourself" story of my life i could say. My mother was always saying dont say things out to loud at the end you always do whatever you said u would never do :) soo back in 2013 i was travelling to Finland, just for a week to do European youth capital project in Helsinki. Short trip was nice, but really nothing special, my comment to was...whatever i think i will never go to Finland again. Not thinking too much about this country after i was doing my regular things back home, studies, work and travelling.
At some point i decided i wanna do this one year voluntary project somewhere in Europe. I was thinking about Austria or Germany, like still close to home so i can visit every month and i can learn german, one thing to do on my bucket list. Then i went to Japan, discovered totally new culture, that made me feel different and happy. Back to Slovenia some interesting project in Finland pop out. Hmm first thought was like no way, even though the project sound really good i wasnt really sure, and Finland is soo far away and there is no sun etc.. at the end im here. Living my dreams. I learned is not about the weather, is the thing i cant change. Is about me, my views and attitude towards life. I found sun inside of me, inside every smile i get from the kids and youngsters im working with. Even i found sun in dark places. In finnish nature, sometimes even in finnish food :) travelling and moving to other country has nothing in common. Now i can say. I kinda judge country based on one week experience, but i gave it second chance...and from now on yes everything and everybody deserve second chance...(ok not in every single case)...and i need to say second chance was f* worth. I have learned a lot, (not the language yet!), but i will, cause i want to. And i want to look forward with occasionally moments looking back, being happy to follow my dreams, and build my life, on different roads, that leads to different places and people :)
but the one thing i always will, i promise to myself! i will always carry one thing with me : SMILE :)
And yes dear readers from all over the world, i will make this event called "childhood memories night" and im sure it will turn into endless night :)
love, muri
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