My
59 flights around the world
I
have entered the air craft and automatically said Terve, to flight attendant at
the doors. Well I have entered the Finnair air craft so lets say its kinda
appropriate to say Hy in finnish J or I just wanted to do it so. Mostly finnish people
on the board I would say.
Its
so funny how I just started to think whole my life, at particular moment
sitting on the plane, direction Helsinki. In last year many things have
changed. Well I have also rebook my flight so im flying back to Finland two
weeks earlier than planned. Anyway at some moment I just felt like I need to do
it. No much questions. Changed dates of my exam and send my master thesis to my
mentor and ready to go. Anyway I need to flight back to Slovenia in three weeks
to do this final exam and defense my thesis (I have more peace in Finland so I
can study there was just a good excuse).
What
I was thinking was that I am sitting on the plane again, that I have been
sitting on the planes so many times before. No I will try to remember all
flight I have taken in last 8 years. I as have say many times before I need to
repeat myself again, because I just get this overwhelming feeling, that I am
actually flying all over the world, changing and conquering the world in many
ways. And I am only 25 years old (some grey hairs once in a while).
This
have start many years ago at primary school, at geography lessons when we were
getting to know world and countries and cultures, when I was spending hours to
read about travelling, about different cultures, about countries and dreaming.
I was a day dreamer. I was dreaming how Im travelling, how Im packing my bags,
how I meet new people, how I get lost discovering new cities, how I look sunset
at beach of Pacific ocean… My wish to learn and share was just growing and
growing. At the beginning of my journey I have feeling this is gonna stay just
a dream. I actually didn’t feel like I am able to see, feel and experience the
world and share my smile all around. It just seemed like nice escape for my
huge imagination.
(What
If I would work as flight attendant on Helsinki – Ljubljana Finnair flights –
just random thought at the moment :D )
Well
and today looking back, I will just say. I wanted something, I went and I got
it. PERIOD. But behind this sentence there is hidden a lot of work, a lot. At
some point you need to choose or new bag and party with friends or new cheap
flight ticket. First of all u need money, since my family is not rich I needed to work to afford this kinda of
lifestyle (my clothes, bags and make up all together are less then few hundred
euros, my car was second hand etc… so by lifestyle I mean being on the road :D)
well I have work as a student any work u can imagine. Selling, phone selling,
cleaning, at bar, different shops, hostess, promotor, project manager,
marketing, youth mentor…sometimes it was easy money sometimes not at all, but
almost everything went to my learning and education and also helping my parents
with bills and things. I can easily say that travelling was best lesson so far,
since I have learned a lot out there in streets of Mexico City or from random
geisha in Tokyo.
So
what I am really trying to say, kinda blabla all about how hard it is. That is
worth it. Even crying at the moment, cause I get it that by the hard work and
believing in myself I did. I was living my dreams. My little curly girl dreams.
I did it. I just got it. The feeling that was here all the time, in all 59
flights all over the world I have survived.
But
the question in my mind that just crossed my mind is, what is next? Did I
complete my dreams and just became middle age silly woman who wants to settle
down? I think some part of my dreams I did. Cause I still cant believe I really
was flying all over the world, meet so many new people, cultures and countries.
I did.
But
maybe I am thinking now about new bigger dreams, since I been living part of
them in last years? I will never stop to travel. That’s for sure. But now if I
think it through yes I have new dreams. Ofc to travel more and more every year.
Dreams of living and working in a new country, one of my favourite song will
describe this country “as the farthest corner of the world”. Well I fell in
love with Finland in many ways, even thou I still hate part of it (salmiaki :D),
and my knowledge of finnish language is really basic, I have a dream. I want to
live and work in Finland, I want to speak finnish fluently in some years, I
want to do another master degree in Finland and learn from their education
system. I also want to write a book. A real book. Myb more than just one.
After
this I want to share my experience and knowledge all around the world, I want
to help people who need help and I want to love people because each of us
deserves love, a lot of love. And especially I want to understand people and
show them I care. Because I do. And I promise I will. I want to listen and
share. And smile, because I know I can. And this is not connected to where I
live or work is connected with how I feel.
Im
sending you greatings from sky, the screen is showing we are above Poland at
the moment. Should be landing at Helsinki in an hour or so.
Petra
Muri
